Ramblings on

♥ unrequited is like a baby that wont be quieted.
The mama paces back and forth, rushes up and down the stairs...
Kinda how the lover races south and north searching for, then finds, then stares...
At that ONE, the baby to the mama-- 'mah bayyybeee' to the lover is
always crying for more, never quite satisfied.
The mama paces back and forth, rushes up and down the stairs...
Kinda how the lover races south and north searching for, then finds, then stares...
these babies cry 'unrequited, I won't be quieted'
One wonders at the appetite mama has found, rushing up and down stairs
One wonders at the appetite the lover has found, now his search is complete...
Will her baby quiet? Will the lover eat?

Got things on my mind...I need to be sleeping.

((AAAAAAHHH!!!!)) LOL I hate when there are so many things on my mind that my heart is racing and I cant focus. My body doesnt know if it wants to laugh or cry. It's all good though. I will be fine. My punctuation might be off in this post...it's 5:52 am sooo....who cares? I don't.
I'm a little bit frustrated with this moving situation. It's supposed to be a relief and all that but really I just feel like a row boat lost in the ocean. Too much going on around me that I cant control. I never have liked that adrift feeling. Never have. I will get over it soon I'm sure. I'm just venting about alot tonight. For example, I have a large family and believe it or not I have a lot of friends as well. I share a lot of my life with my family and I share the rest with my friends. I have some very good friends that I love like family and they have never even met my family. If I had to pick five friends, my family could name two. Three tops. That is because I like to keep certain things in my life separate from each other. It allows me a way to keep certain things for myself. Some friends judge your relationship with your family and feel the need to put three and four cents in when I didnt ask for two to begin with. I dont like that. I also dont like when family feels the need to talk about stuff they dont know about like my friends. If I didnt invite you in the door, stay your a** on the effing porch. I'm just saying. So this has been a point of contention with my family because  I feel like they are being invasive. I have a FB and I often post status updates about what is going on in my life. Arguments, funny thoughts, random boring thoughts...what have you. My family often reads my status updates and get up in arms about what they assume is about them. For example, the other day stupid biotch calls my phone early in the AM on some garbage about what I said to a guy friend. She and I got into it, long story short, I was talking about her in a status. I said something about the bitch being fancy and non existent jealousy...random stuff. Anywho, my sister reads it and thinks its about her. WHY? I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA. I wasnt even mad at my sister. Hadnt said a cross word to eachother the whole damn day. I'm like the status update wasnt about you. Shes like who is it about? Not you. okay but who. It's like OMFG leave me alone I dont want to talk about it. My family's response, its facebook and you put it up there for the world to see and you dont want to talk about it and I dont like that. If you want to keep it private keep it off FB. put it in a diary.
My response is ummm no. I'm not being passive aggressive just because I dont want to share what's going on with YOU GUYS. Some things you share with family. Some things you share with friends. I shouldnt have to apologize or censor myself simply because you guys think everything is about you. Im not a quiet person. I say what needs to be said. If I really had a problem with you, I'm going to argue with you. You're family. I dont need to get on FB and call you a bitch to get a point across. Thats just silly. You call bitches in the street bitches. Not family. I'm just so frustrated. It's not private it's just not for you...simple as that. respect it or delete me. Anyway....this blog is so grammatically incorrect. smdh...oh well. Bedtime.

Hey subbies!!

I have really been slacking on my blogs and videos. I am so sorry about that. I have been preparing to move into my new apt and started a new semester at school. I am still intent upon doing a Vlog about my weight loss journey and plenty of make up tutorials and hair!! So please stay tuned to my youtube as well as my blog because even though I only have a few subscribers right now, I know that my fan base will grow through your continued support. I look forward to sharing my new things with you. I miss you guys!!

Boyce Avenue Tour Dates

US / Canada Tour: (use links below)
http://BoyceAvenue.com/Tour

Feb 11 - Vancouver, BC | Venue | http://bit.ly/ikfy5h (click for tickets)

Feb 12 - Seattle, WA | The Vera Project | http://bit.ly/hXfBCQ

Feb 15 - San Francisco, CA | Great American Music Hall | http://bit.ly/fMXibV

Feb 17 - Los Angeles, CA | The Roxy | http://bit.ly/dKGD9k

Feb 19 - Phoenix, AZ | The Duce | http://bit.ly/fUhsdZ

Feb 21 - Dallas, TX | House of Blues | http://bit.ly/h8Gnua

Feb 22 - Austin, TX | Emo's | http://bit.ly/i3p52T

Feb 23 - Houston, TX | House of Blues | http://bit.ly/eV2GNn

Feb 25 - Gainesville, FL | Common Grounds | http://bit.ly/hdqyuu

Feb 27 - Orlando, FL | The Plaza Theatre | http://ticketf.ly/hvaNLT

Mar 16 - Washington, D.C. | Rock & Roll Hotel | http://bit.ly/fLuoGX

Mar 18 - New York, NY | Music Hall of Williamsburg | http://bit.ly/dErLtk

Mar 19 - Boston, MA | Royale | http://bit.ly/eK9fMO

Mar 20 - Uncasville, CT | Mohegan Sun | http://bit.ly/mQpIb (no openers)

Mar 21- Montreal, QC | Cafe Campus | http://bit.ly/hTk9nY

Mar 23- Ottawa, ON | Mavericks | http://bit.ly/gMucMP

Mar 24 - Toronto, ON | The Opera House | http://bit.ly/ika7vp

Mar 25 - Ann Arbor, MI | The Blind Pig | http://bit.ly/fsjeRh

Mar 26 - Chicago, IL | The Bottom Lounge | http://bit.ly/gy9Cij

(Feb with special guests Megan & Liz and Tiffany Alvord)
(March with special guest Alex Goot)

Journey with Me!!

Hey ya'll!! So the new year is coming and I have been working on some things. I started in August but I have decided to carry them into the new year with me to incorporate more positivity into my everyday life. SO I have decided that I am going to start video logging my weight loss journey. I have been working on my weight for years and thus far, I have gone from a size 34 to a size 26. I have been stuck at a 26 for years and as it has become very frustrating for me I have decided to try a whole new approach. Please feel free to follow me and my journey as well as encourage others to do so as well. I will post the first video on 12/31/10 and will do a video a day (whether I have makeup on or not lol) until 12/31/11 and we will see where I am.

I will be discussing my daily food intake, my struggles with avoiding certain foods, my exercise routines, my emotions and everything else that accompanies such a life change. I will also do contests for each subscriber milestone (100 subbies, 500 subbies, 1000 subbies and so on) so please encourage your friends to subscribe. I love health and beauty so I will have plenty of gift certificates and packages to give away. I look forward to sharing my journey with you all. :) Save the date in your calendar and be ready to journey with me on 12/31/10 at the following link.

http://www.youtube.com/user/starrlicious2?feature=mhum

Really?

I suppose I am going to have to do a VLOG about this issue because honestly, I think I will ramble too much to make sense in a written blog. I want to address stupidity. You know it is really disturbing that we allow our children to become experts on video games, computer games, can navigate through any social website yet, they can hardly string together complete thoughts. It actually angers me to see so many of our peers, actually unable to speak properly, to spell even the most basic of words, to use even the proper form of a word. A malapropism is 'the gross misuse of a word'. I feel like there has to be a word for the gross misuse of the English language. I'm not addressing text talk or regular internet jargon like 'wtf, phuck, askin' whateva'' or things like that. I'm talking about lost being written as lossed, practice being written as practised, the misuse of their, they're and there, the use of here instead of hear, where or ever ware instead of wear, close instead of clothes. These types of mistakes in an adult are just plain sad. These mistakes in the language and writing of an adult with children are just tragic. What are you teaching your child?
Some people can not be blamed for how they were raised. Some people's parent bought them video games instead of books, toys instead of paper and pencils and that's okay. However, as an adult, don't you want more? As a parent don't you want more for your own children? You sit on Facebook and you talk about your child with such love and admiration, but you don't take the time out to better yourself? You must understand that in order to teach something, you must learn it first. Your child should be able to walk, unless handicapped. Your child will be unable to grow and be successful if you handicap them by refusing to acknowledge your own shortcomings and seek out ways to overcome them. We can not blame the world for what happens in our homes at night. You can choose to watch Housewives or try out a new 27 piece or you can pick up a book and read it to your child. You can give her crayons and send her on her way or you can teach her to write her name. You can say 'gimme dat lil' girl' or you can say 'Morgan, bring me that pen.' Children are sponges and they will soak up whatever they can good or bad. Try to provide them with as much good as possible. They deserve it.

Sneaky little bastard

It's so odd how quickly grief sneaks up on you. Everytime I think I am over losing my grandmother, I see a picture or hear a song, read a poem or smell her perfume and the tears come. They overtake me as if she had just died three minutes ago. I dont think I can ever think of her and not be sad that she is gone. I loved her so so damn much. She was my world man...SMH. I truly dont understand why it hurts so much. I never wanted her to stay in pain. She was so sick and it was definitely time for her to move on but that selfish part of me is screaming in pain for her to come back. I need her here with me, guiding me and loving me when no one else did. Now she's gone and I just feel alone. I'm the damn ant in the beehive again. I miss her.